The Eighth and Final Square

with courage face the thing you fear so the pawn becomes the queen

Oh jeez. My dad. Dennis, as I will call him henceforth, because he is not a father figure to me and he was never the father figure that I hoped, wanted, or needed. Last night I had a crazy dream about him. I dreamt that I was back at their house, and he was violently abusive towards me…hitting me with my tablet (which broke the detachable keyboard), saying horribly mean things, and breaking my laptop. In my dream, I had […]

Posted by Phoenix On Feb - 10 - 2014 2 Comments READ FULL POST

Author’s Note 04-26-12: I still agree with most of the things I wrote here, but I consider myself an agnostic, out of choice, not reaction. I read this post this morning and originally I was going to just post the link to Facebook and add my thoughts, but then I thought I would write a blog post. Besides that, I wanted to make sure people read her post. “I Used To Be You” by Libby Anne When I first started […]

Posted by Phoenix On Aug - 3 - 2011 14 Comments READ FULL POST

So there’s some huge debate thing going on with two sides. I don’t really know much about it, except it seems one side is pro-love and the other side is anti-pro-love-side. I also gather that one side staunchly believes in the existence of hell (as in agony and flames for eternity), and the other side is questioning that. (If that’s not exactly right, don’t bother to correct me because these are my thoughts and I don’t really care who is […]

Posted by Phoenix On Mar - 10 - 2011 39 Comments READ FULL POST

So there is an unnamed forum inhabited by homeschool graduates, and on said forum, they are supposedly discussing Darcy‘s posts on emotional purity (part one, part two, part three), but when I poked my head in there, on page 28, they were talking about the differences between “Gen 1” (our parents) and “Gen 2” (us). I think one of the tenants of legalism is “thou shalt be hypocritical”. Seriously. I still can’t get over it. Hypocrisy is something I abhor […]

Posted by Phoenix On Feb - 8 - 2011 21 Comments READ FULL POST

I don’t know how many times I’ve heard that phrase. Several times it’s been applied to me. Sometimes it’s cautionary: “Don’t get into a victim mentality”, and sometimes “stop playing the victim”, and so on. Hey guess what: I GET IT. So STFU already. I DON’T want to get into a victim mentality. (BTW, warning me not to is not helpful.) I worry constantly about if I’m complaining too much or whatever.  The helpful people tell me I’m not complaining […]

Posted by Phoenix On Feb - 4 - 2011 12 Comments READ FULL POST
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