The Eighth and Final Square

with courage face the thing you fear so the pawn becomes the queen

It’ll have been 7 years this July that I moved out of my folks’. Since then we’ve had some good times, we’ve had some bad times, but that’s sort of life anyway. I’ve seen photos of my younger siblings…all grown up now. I hardly even recognize some of them, they look so different! I have never regretted leaving, but I do miss them, a lot. I’ve showed Ari pictures and we talk about them on a regular basis. Leaving was […]

Posted by Phoenix On Feb - 20 - 2017 Add Comments READ FULL POST

I haven’t written a post here in a LONG time, mostly because I haven’t really felt the need to get a lot off my chest…after six years I’m doing so much better than I probably would have thought possible back then. Of course there are still lingering issues and trigger situations (I almost walked out of work on Saturday), but overall…much improved. Apparently, though, I still get really depressed and on-edge around May-July, which is when all the shit went […]

Posted by Phoenix On Aug - 29 - 2016 Add Comments READ FULL POST

I started NaNoWriMo in 2006, if I remember correctly. I did it faithfully until 2010, and it was just too stressful…trying to write 50k words in 30 days. I haven’t done it since, because I was cutting out stressful things. But I’m thinking of doing it again this year, so here’s my obligatory “I’m Doing NaNoWriMo 2014!” post.

Posted by Phoenix On Oct - 30 - 2014 Add Comments READ FULL POST

So…I’m a little late to the party, but we JUST saw Frozen (thanks to our awesome Dish setup). I’ve seen all sorts of opinions on this movie, from “omg, so stupid, if I hear “Let It Go” one more time I’m going to go batshit!” to “omg, I love it!!” I’ve read some of the negative reviews, and I only have one thing to say…let it go. (Sorry, couldn’t help myself. 😀 ) It’s a kid’s movie. All of the […]

Posted by Phoenix On Apr - 3 - 2014 Add Comments READ FULL POST

I don’t know about other introverts, but this is how life works in my head. When I’m in a room with people, I “feel” them in my head. Each person takes up space in my head. After a while, my head gets fuzzy and I just need space alone. Even when going to bed, I can’t go to sleep until Scottie and Ari are both asleep, because when they are awake, my head isn’t clear. I can’t go to sleep […]

Posted by Phoenix On Apr - 2 - 2014 Add Comments READ FULL POST

I probably say this too much, but I LOVE that I now have the freedom to just be myself. There are SO many things that I almost take for granted now that I couldn’t do three and a half years ago. Mostly little things, that “normal” people DO take for granted, but some others too. I can paint my nails any color I want. I have a driver’s license. I have a bank account without my parents’ name on it. […]

Posted by Phoenix On Aug - 15 - 2013 Add Comments READ FULL POST

Hello, to anyone who still reads this! This is probably going to be just a rambly, update-y type post. Everyone else is all like posting great articles and I’m like I wish I could! I’ve been so focused on school school school that I feel too guilty to do anything else, even if I’m not doing school. So, school…I’m taking some online classes to become a Medical Administrative Assistant, which is a fancy term for “office-person at a doctor’s office”. […]

Posted by Phoenix On Jan - 29 - 2013 2 Comments READ FULL POST

It occurred to me in the middle if the night (after trying to sleep after being up for two hours with a baby who hates to sleep!) just what a dark place I came from, mentally. I was really depressed (and didn’t know it), and was told depression was selfish and came from focusing on one’s own problems too much (but dad was allowed to be depressed). I self-harmed regularly (they didn’t know of course), and was told people who […]

Posted by Phoenix On Oct - 5 - 2012 4 Comments READ FULL POST
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