The Eighth and Final Square

with courage face the thing you fear so the pawn becomes the queen

Oh jeez. My dad. Dennis, as I will call him henceforth, because he is not a father figure to me and he was never the father figure that I hoped, wanted, or needed. Last night I had a crazy dream about him. I dreamt that I was back at their house, and he was violently abusive towards me…hitting me with my tablet (which broke the detachable keyboard), saying horribly mean things, and breaking my laptop. In my dream, I had […]

Posted by Phoenix On Feb - 10 - 2014 2 Comments READ FULL POST

The only time God sends you away empty is when you’re full of yourself. There are so many things wrong with that statement it isn’t even funny, it’s just sad. #1, the person who’s saying that. Talk about full of himself. #2, God doesn’t send people away, if anybody walks away ts because they decided to, not because God sent them away. The difference between a LOVING god and a childish, vengeful, small god. #3, you can’t even come to […]

Posted by Phoenix On May - 23 - 2011 4 Comments READ FULL POST

“You keep saying that word. I do not think it means what you think it means.” If I’m being honest with myself, I have to admit that right now I’m angry at my parents, my dad especially. (I still haven’t come to grips with the mom-enabler thing yet, when I do I’ll probably be angry at her too.) And I don’t think it’s a bad thing: I’ve had way to many years of having to bottle up all the anger […]

Posted by Phoenix On May - 20 - 2011 11 Comments READ FULL POST
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