The Eighth and Final Square

with courage face the thing you fear so the pawn becomes the queen

Oddly enough, I’ve recently found out that stepping back from the sphere of Christianity allows me to have a better grasp on the whole thing: I’m completely objective, I have no bias or leaning or anything else interfering with the way I view the Christian bible. I see things more clearly and in a new light than I did before. (I suppose here’s where the Christians tell me “If you see it so clearly, then you’ll know it’s right!” or, […]

Posted by Phoenix On Nov - 29 - 2011 15 Comments READ FULL POST

Have you ever wondered if there was more to the story of Mary than what is written in the Christian bible? I have. Especially after also becoming pregnant unexpectedly. I know, I know, it’s a common myth that you run that risk if you don’t use protection or birth control 100% of the time. (In reality, there are fertile times of the month, and non-fertile times of the month. Unfortunately, apparently my body isn’t that predictable!) When the angel spoke […]

Posted by Phoenix On Sep - 30 - 2011 13 Comments READ FULL POST

This was evidently one of those forward emails in the early 2000’s that I unfortunately didn’t have the pleasure of receiving in my inbox. (I was getting guilt-trip “if you love Jesus you’ll send these on!” emails. Hate those.) Nobody knows who really wrote this, and it’s supposedly to Dr. Laura Schlesinger (after she allegedly said that homosexuality is an abomination according to the Bible Leviticus 18:22, and cannot be condoned under any circumstance). In any case, it’s hilarious. _______________________ […]

Posted by Phoenix On Sep - 12 - 2011 10 Comments READ FULL POST

I’ve never liked it when non-parents, or parents of very young children, talked about parenting and how to raise kids. The reason being, the Big Bad Teen Years were still looming in the not-so-distant future. How were those young parents and young non-parents going to prove their methods worked, if they hadn’t successfully brought a child through the teen years? My dad would explain his methods of child training to other people. Stuff like, if your kid has an attitude, […]

Posted by Phoenix On Aug - 19 - 2011 15 Comments READ FULL POST

Author’s Note 04-26-12: I still agree with most of the things I wrote here, but I consider myself an agnostic, out of choice, not reaction. I read this post this morning and originally I was going to just post the link to Facebook and add my thoughts, but then I thought I would write a blog post. Besides that, I wanted to make sure people read her post. “I Used To Be You” by Libby Anne When I first started […]

Posted by Phoenix On Aug - 3 - 2011 14 Comments READ FULL POST

I don’t know how many times and to how many people I said “I’m preparing to be a wife and mother” when presented with the question of “why are you still at home”, “are you going to college”, etc. Normal questions. I remember being so proud of that. Then I remember when it turned into just something I said…it didn’t mean anything to me anymore. Truth is, in a lot, if not most (read carefully here, I’m not saying all) […]

Posted by Phoenix On Jul - 25 - 2011 22 Comments READ FULL POST

Part Two of Scottie’s and my story. Feel free to ask questions…I feel like I didn’t capture everything I was trying to express. Part 1 Part 3 Part 4 *** February of 2010 — right before Valentine’s Day — Scottie broke up with his girlfriend.  (His car broke down around the same time!)  He told me (and her) it wasn’t because of me, but because of other reasons…but by that time he had figured out he was, in fact, in love […]

Posted by Phoenix On Jul - 14 - 2011 9 Comments READ FULL POST

“You take the blue pill – the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill – you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes.” -Morpheus (from the film The Matrix) It’s nice to be comfortable. It’s good to know what’s going on…to be in a place you know the rules to, you’re used to, even if it is a shitty place. You’ve heard […]

Posted by Phoenix On Jun - 25 - 2011 4 Comments READ FULL POST
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