The Eighth and Final Square

with courage face the thing you fear so the pawn becomes the queen

I haven’t written a post here in a LONG time, mostly because I haven’t really felt the need to get a lot off my chest…after six years I’m doing so much better than I probably would have thought possible back then. Of course there are still lingering issues and trigger situations (I almost walked out of work on Saturday), but overall…much improved. Apparently, though, I still get really depressed and on-edge around May-July, which is when all the shit went […]

Posted by Phoenix On Aug - 29 - 2016 Add Comments READ FULL POST
She LOVES ballet!

When Ari was a baby, one one of the desperate nights of trying to get her to sleep, I wanted to sing her a lullaby but I had forgotten the words to Brahms’ Lullaby. So I did the only sensible thing I could do and made up new words. A few weeks ago, Scottie thought up more lyrics, so I wrote the first verse and he wrote the second and third. Go to sleep, go to sleep, Close your eyes […]

Posted by Phoenix On May - 31 - 2015 Add Comments READ FULL POST

Ari just turned three, in December. By the time I was three, my parents had three kids (me, 3, Ben, 1, and Joe, newborn). I can’t imagine having three children all Ari’s age or younger! I think about all the quality time I have with Ari, and it makes me so happy that I can do that. By the time Ruth was the age I am currently, they had seven kids (see the photo on the right). Today, Ari and […]

Posted by Phoenix On Jan - 3 - 2015 5 Comments READ FULL POST
My Baby Doll

Whoever said you can’t reason with toddlers is wrong. Dead wrong. If they’re right, Ari didn’t get the memo. When you have a relationship based on mutual trust and love, it’s really not all that difficult. We do it all the time, and have for months. Ari visited Grandma’s today, and someone they had with them is deathly allergic to peanuts. Ari had just had peanut butter, so Grandma wanted me to change her clothes. I had just put her […]

Posted by Phoenix On Oct - 15 - 2014 Add Comments READ FULL POST
What would YOU choose?

There are so many assholeish-towards-kids posts going viral. It’s really upsetting. There’s the guy that bought out all the McDonald’s pies because he was offended that a child was impatient (no, really? Children are impatient??). I really don’t care what the child was doing, nor what the mother was doing; the guy did an asshole thing and acted just as childish as the child…which really says a lot about HIS intelligence. Yet people are like “This guy is GREAT!” Why […]

Posted by Phoenix On Aug - 24 - 2014 2 Comments READ FULL POST

Dennis always said “kids are sponges”, which was the reason he needed to brainwash us into his religious fanaticism, so we wouldn’t soak up The World. Unfortunately, he had this huge double standard: on the one hand, “kids are sponges”, and on the other hand, “I must beat my kids into being good”. If there’s one thing I’ve thoroughly learned in the two years since I birthed Ari, it’s that the best way to raise a child is to set […]

Posted by Phoenix On Mar - 24 - 2014 Add Comments READ FULL POST
Us on our anniversary in 2012

Once upon a time, there was a girl who was lonely. She was kept in a tower of sorts, with minimal contact to the outside world, and was very unhappy: nobody in her tower took the time to understand her and love her for who she was; instead, they tried to make her into what they thought she should be so they would love her. One day, she was introduced to a man online, and they started talking. When the […]

Posted by Phoenix On Feb - 14 - 2014 Add Comments READ FULL POST

I realize this entire post comes from my own experience, but I think I will make some good points. When I was a kid, we were made to share rooms. With 12 kids, you can’t really get each kid their own room (which is partly why I think having a ton of kids is irresponsible). I hated it. Being an introvert, I need my own space, and especially in a family of that size, a personal space to call your […]

Posted by Phoenix On Jan - 16 - 2014 2 Comments READ FULL POST
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