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It’ll have been 7 years this July that I moved out of my folks’. Since then we’ve had some good times, we’ve had some bad times, but that’s sort of life anyway. I’ve seen photos of my younger siblings…all grown up now. I hardly even recognize some of them, they look so different! I have never regretted leaving, but I do miss them, a lot. I’ve showed Ari pictures and we talk about them on a regular basis. Leaving was […]

Posted by Phoenix On Feb - 20 - 2017 Add Comments READ FULL POST
Us on our anniversary in 2012

Once upon a time, there was a girl who was lonely. She was kept in a tower of sorts, with minimal contact to the outside world, and was very unhappy: nobody in her tower took the time to understand her and love her for who she was; instead, they tried to make her into what they thought she should be so they would love her. One day, she was introduced to a man online, and they started talking. When the […]

Posted by Phoenix On Feb - 14 - 2014 Add Comments READ FULL POST

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 *** I was there at my friend’s friend’s house for nearly two months. I was glad to be out of my parents’ house, and was very optimistic about life (for the first time ever). But after almost two months in that house, I was more than ready to leave. Sufficient to say, she treated me a lot like my dad did…she didn’t respect my boundaries, sort of lectured me (I don’t think she meant […]

Posted by Phoenix On Aug - 1 - 2011 18 Comments READ FULL POST

Part 1 Part 2 Part 4 *** For the first week or so, I was hopeful, even cheerful. I felt secure in my family again. Then things started getting me down. Nobody had changed. If anything, they had gotten worse — I was allowed practically no contact with the outside world…no phone, someone next to me if I was online (which was only once, because I had some work to finish), and when we went to the store or library, I […]

Posted by Phoenix On Jul - 18 - 2011 16 Comments READ FULL POST

Part Two of Scottie’s and my story. Feel free to ask questions…I feel like I didn’t capture everything I was trying to express. Part 1 Part 3 Part 4 *** February of 2010 — right before Valentine’s Day — Scottie broke up with his girlfriend.  (His car broke down around the same time!)  He told me (and her) it wasn’t because of me, but because of other reasons…but by that time he had figured out he was, in fact, in love […]

Posted by Phoenix On Jul - 14 - 2011 9 Comments READ FULL POST

Scottie’s and my “story”…and also the story of my Independence Day from my controlling father. Part one, posted today on the one-year anniversary of my “escape”. Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 *** Online stuff was pretty much the extent of my social life for many years. We didn’t have interactions with other families very much, and I didn’t really have friends my age. There was this one family who had a daughter whom I was friends with, but when […]

Posted by Phoenix On Jul - 5 - 2011 9 Comments READ FULL POST

Remember this was your favorite song from Fiddler on the Roof? Loving someone else doesn’t mean I love you any less. I miss you!! How can I hope to make you understand Why I do what I do, Why I must travel to a distant land Far from the home I love? Once I was happily content to be As I was, where I was Close to the people who are close to me Here in the home I love… […]

Posted by Phoenix On Jan - 29 - 2011 1 Comment READ FULL POST
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