The Eighth and Final Square

with courage face the thing you fear so the pawn becomes the queen

I want to be me without apology.”

So my hair isn't THAT black, but who's complaining!

I grew up as the oldest of 11 kids (5 boys, 7 girls). We were fundamentalist, legalistic, conservative Republicans. The environment was toxic, we were brainwashed and spanked well into adulthood (both of those things, my dad bragged about), and when I moved out at age 23, my dad cut me off from my parents and the rest of my siblings. I miss my siblings, but I have a new family and I have never once regretted leaving.

My new family consists of me, my husband, and my absolutely adorable daughter Ari. I had to get rid of my cat a couple months after Ari was born. I want to get another kitten sometime, hopefully soon. I met Scottie online in 2009, and at first we were just best friends. We didn’t think there was any chance we could ever have something more than an online relationship because of my dad, but we were engaged two months before I moved out, and married a month and a half later. One of the best decisions I’ve ever made was to ignore my dad’s opinion and trust my own judgment in finding a spouse!

I have two mottoes. The first one is, the future belongs to the brave. This one reminds me to stop being afraid. My second motto is, with courage face the thing you fear so the pawn becomes the queen. This one also reminds me to stop being afraid, and pursue self-confidence.

I don’t really like labels, because I think people should just be themselves, but sometimes labels are useful in explaining, using brevity, what a person believes and who they are. I’m an atheist, feminist, liberal, bisexual, cisgendered woman who believes in equality and respect.

I’m 100% INTJ. If you ever want to know how my brain works and how I act, read that. It was cool to read it and go “Oh, so that’s why!” to so many things! I get along a lot better with people online than in person, and I can explain my thoughts much better in text than orally.

I enjoy snuggling with and talking to my babydoll, spending time with my husband, Doctor Who, The Vampire Diaries, Harry Potter, photography, reading, blogging, graphics, web design, coffee, rum, chocolate wine, and that’s the tip of the iceberg!

my tattooI finally got my first tattoo in April 2013, on the inside of my left wrist. It’s a crown with the words “Trust Yourself” underneath, in Scottie’s handwriting. The crown stands for “queen”, as in “quicksilverqueen” and the reference to my motto. The words “Trust Yourself” are in Scottie’s handwriting (because I didn’t like any font as well as I like his handwriting), and it’s reminding me to be confident in my abilities and stop selling myself short.

Even though I try, I’m still in some ways very timid…still trying to become the brave queen!

My Independence Day“, the story of Scottie’s and my love and my escape: Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4

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