The Eighth and Final Square

with courage face the thing you fear so the pawn becomes the queen

Archive for October, 2013

Growing up, we called Halloween “The Devil’s Birthday”. It was the day everyone worshipped Satan, Satanists sacrificed babies to Satan, and regular people went along with the holiday for the candy…which as we all knew, was poisoned by the witches. The “holiday” (it was a fake holiday because the word holiday meant holy day) came from ancient druids who sacrificed children to Satan. We weren’t allowed to eat anything Halloween-themed or even color on pictures of bats or jack o’ […]

Posted by Phoenix On Oct - 31 - 2013 Add Comments READ FULL POST

People have a bad habit of calling men and women in my position (having moved out of their fundie parents’ and started talking about their experiences) “bitter”. Because, you know, talking about your life is NOT what you do in therapy, either, but somehow you’re not bitter there. Whatever. If you want bitter, I’ll give you bitter. I’m bitter and hurt and upset that the people who were supposed to love me unconditionally, had conditions on their “love”. I’m upset […]

Posted by Phoenix On Oct - 20 - 2013 8 Comments READ FULL POST

There are so many things I know now that I wish I knew when I was younger. A group I’m in wanted us to answer the question “What do you wish your 16-year-old self knew?”, and I’ve been thinking about writing a post along those lines anyway, so I just decided to do it now. What I Wish My Younger Self Knew I wish she knew everything wasn’t her fault. I wish she knew she didn’t have to be stuck […]

Posted by Phoenix On Oct - 15 - 2013 Add Comments READ FULL POST
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