The Eighth and Final Square

with courage face the thing you fear so the pawn becomes the queen

I’ve started so many posts that I haven’t finished or published! I figured that since I’m just sitting here nursing the baby, that I’d just talk about stuff that’s happened lately!


I got a job!!! I’m working at a Sears portrait studio. So far it’s a lot of fun! Since I already have photography experience, I was shooting on the first day! I feel like sales is a bit more difficult for me, but I take it as a challenge. My manager is amazing…she is very encouraging and non judgmental. Actually, I have to ask for criticism, which is really kind of perfect for me!

I’ve also started doing freelance photography. In honor of World Breastfeeding Week (the first week of August), and to launch my business, I ran a special deal for breastfeeding mothers to get photos of them breastfeeding their babies. I’m working on a website/photography blog (as if I need something else to do!) but until that’s done, check out my Facebook page.

Scottie’s also found a job (he lost his last one the beginning of June)…overnight stocking at a Neighborhood Market. He goes to work at 9:45 pm, when I start trying to get Ari to sleep. He gets home after 7 am, when I’m just getting up. Ideally, Ari stays asleep for a couple hours and he sleeps too, then when I get home in the afternoon, he goes back to bed. A bit crazy!


Ari is still small for her age, but she’s still growing…just slowly. She is adorableness incarnate!! She’s started rolling and pulling herself up on things, usually just to a kneeling position. She’s doing really well with me being gone 4-6 hours 3-4 days weekly which I’m glad of!! She’s started showing a little independence…she likes to do things for herself as much as she can, while sitting next to me or on my lap. She discovered she can play the toss and fetch game all by herself! She’s also started playing peekaboo and it’s so cute!!


The August 25th was Scottie’s and my second anniversary!! We went out to the movies and managed to see two for the matinee price! These have definitely, without question, been the best two years of my life! I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with my best friend!!


Today was my baby sister’s 4th birthday…the second birthday without her. I kind of feel like they are a distant memory for me…like they died and I grieved and am moving on. I think that’s a good thing. I guess there isn’t a right or wrong way to feel about it, because it’s my unique experience and my unique feelings. I still miss the kids, but I don’t even think about it as much anymore, and when I hear of other people’s parent-drama it makes me really glad I don’t have to deal with that. I feel like I have an easier time healing, and that I’ll be more prepared for if/when the day comes I have to/get to speak to my parents again. I feel like I have come a really long ways in two years…I feel like the people who know me now wouldn’t recognize the me of two years ago! I realized just how I far I’ve come when I was talking to a friend of mine about another photoshoot special, this one for Halloween, and she said I’d better not call it a Halloween special or the holy rollers would have a fit. It’s a nice feeling!!


There was probably more that I was going to write, since I haven’t written in a while, but it’s 11 pm and I have to get up at 7 so I’m gonna go to bed.

Phoenix On August - 26 - 2012

One Response so far.

  1. Sydney says:

    Congrats on the job! Good to see another post from you. Ari is so adorable!! Though I know I don’t have to tell you that. 😉

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