The Eighth and Final Square

with courage face the thing you fear so the pawn becomes the queen

I dreamt of my family last night. They were at the airport, going to the same destination as Scottie and I. Elle had grown so much I couldn’t tell the difference between her and Abby hardly. Most of them ignored me, walking past me like I didn’t even exist, except Elle…she didn’t speak to me but she looked at me with a puzzled look, and almost spoke but passed on with the rest. I didn’t speak to them, but I blew kisses at Abby and Elle so they’d know I still loved them.

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Sometimes I dream of one of the kids…sometimes some really scary dreams like the one I had in which I was back at my parents’ for a visit, and suddenly realized I didn’t know how I was going to get back to Scottie. Some are arguments between me and my parents, with me asserting my boundaries (and winning). I think I’ve had more of those than the scary dreams in which they mentally overpower me, so I think that’s good?

Phoenix On January - 10 - 2011

6 Responses so far.

  1. Valerie Morrison says:

    Yes, that's good. It means you are becoming more confident and sure of yourself, and who you are, and the decisions you have made and are making. Growing up is a beautiful thing… Growing into your own relationship with God is an even more beautiful thing! <3

  2. Manda says:

    wow… I had a dream about my family last nite too… I've been having a lot of dreams about them lately… *sigh* they are never good tho =( and the one the other nite basically paralyzed me it was so bad!

  3. Aunt Fran says:

    I'm so sorry you have to go through this sweetie. Praying your heart will be settled. You still have family here. We will ALWAYS be here.

    Love you 🙂

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