The Eighth and Final Square

with courage face the thing you fear so the pawn becomes the queen

Sometimes I’m depressed, but sometimes happiness is crawling through me so much that I feel like I’m high on it, that I can hardly keep from wiggling. I am SO GLAD to be with Scottie, to have a future full of hope, some great inlaws, and freedom from the fear of death.

Right now, I’m on top of the world. I’m learning to laugh at people who criticize me for no reason (and you know, sometimes it IS pretty funny!). The bad dream I had last night about my mom affected me so little I almost forgot it. I’m growing. I’m laughing. I’m loving. I’m living!

I don’t always feel this way, so I take it when I can. I don’t have to wake up every morning dreading the day. (OK, I still don’t like waking up, but that’s another story! But even that is better since I have a cute husband to wake up next to! 😉 ) I cuddle up to my sleepy husband and he wraps me in his arms and I feel whole. Complete. Happy. Safe. I have nothing to fear! There’s just love. Not perfect love, but real love nonetheless.

And life is a road that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I’ll be there when the world stops turning
I’ll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Phoenix On January - 21 - 2011

2 Responses so far.

  1. Angel says:

    YAY for great in-laws!!! 😀

  2. Randomness says:

    […] have been up and down. I was superly happy a week or so ago, then I’ve kind of been depressed-ish in the last week. And I’ve been going […]

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