The Eighth and Final Square

with courage face the thing you fear so the pawn becomes the queen

Archive for September, 2011

Have you ever wondered if there was more to the story of Mary than what is written in the Christian bible? I have. Especially after also becoming pregnant unexpectedly. I know, I know, it’s a common myth that you run that risk if you don’t use protection or birth control 100% of the time. (In reality, there are fertile times of the month, and non-fertile times of the month. Unfortunately, apparently my body isn’t that predictable!) When the angel spoke […]

Posted by Phoenix On Sep - 30 - 2011 13 Comments READ FULL POST

I’ve always been afraid of God*. I’ve always been afraid he was arbitrary, and that even though I tried my best to be whatever he wanted, it would never be enough. I was afraid to get baptized when I turned 18 (my family’s age of allowing baptism) because my dad never seemed to have anything good to say about me in his lectures, while one of my brothers seemed to do everything “right”. I was afraid that if predestination was […]

Posted by Phoenix On Sep - 27 - 2011 28 Comments READ FULL POST

I’m writing this full screen. Nothing else has my attention: I’m focusing it on this post. The only things distracting me is the hum of my computer fan, the sound of my cat washing herself (yes, I can hear it), the occasional text, and the drips I hear outside my window. This is a hard post for me, but I want to do it. I want to show you more of my true self…not just my surface thoughts and feelings, […]

Posted by Phoenix On Sep - 16 - 2011 6 Comments READ FULL POST

This was evidently one of those forward emails in the early 2000’s that I unfortunately didn’t have the pleasure of receiving in my inbox. (I was getting guilt-trip “if you love Jesus you’ll send these on!” emails. Hate those.) Nobody knows who really wrote this, and it’s supposedly to Dr. Laura Schlesinger (after she allegedly said that homosexuality is an abomination according to the Bible Leviticus 18:22, and cannot be condoned under any circumstance). In any case, it’s hilarious. _______________________ […]

Posted by Phoenix On Sep - 12 - 2011 10 Comments READ FULL POST

I’ve been reading through the book “Why Does He Do That?” (it’s a little difficult translating it to an abusive father, rather than an abusive spouse, but some of the principles are the same), and I came across this passage that completely refutes Debi Pearl and anyone else who says women should do whatever men want. An abused woman tends to pour precious energy into supporting her abusive partner and massaging his ego, hoping against hope that if he is […]

Posted by Phoenix On Sep - 5 - 2011 18 Comments READ FULL POST

So recently, Debi Pearl (of Created To Be His Helpmeet, Preparing To Be His Helpmeet, and

Posted by Phoenix On Sep - 1 - 2011 34 Comments READ FULL POST
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