The Eighth and Final Square

with courage face the thing you fear so the pawn becomes the queen

Archive for June, 2011

(Click for full-size downloadable wallpaper of the heart escaping the jar.) I love this song. It’s so pretty, and in a lot of ways, can be applied to my situation with my parents. Jar of Hearts No, I can’t take one more step towards you ‘Cause all that’s waiting is regret Don’t you know I’m not your ghost anymore You lost the love I loved the most I learned to live, half alive And now you want me one more […]

Posted by Phoenix On Jun - 30 - 2011 2 Comments READ FULL POST

“You take the blue pill – the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill – you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes.” -Morpheus (from the film The Matrix) It’s nice to be comfortable. It’s good to know what’s going on…to be in a place you know the rules to, you’re used to, even if it is a shitty place. You’ve heard […]

Posted by Phoenix On Jun - 25 - 2011 4 Comments READ FULL POST

Happy Father’s Day to two of my favorite people in the world who are both new fathers…Joe and Scottie!! I’m sure they’re both gonna be great fathers! And happy father’s day to my father in law, other fathers, etc. And single moms. 😉 *** Children are smart. There, I said it. My dad would totally disagree. But seriously, how does a 2 year old learn the word ‘delicious’ and know how to use it properly? Nobody tried to teach her, […]

Posted by Phoenix On Jun - 20 - 2011 6 Comments READ FULL POST

I had a dream the other night that I beat up my dad. I think it was good it happened in a dream…and I think it helped get out some if my anger at him. *** I think when I moved out, I made a wall of some sort around my heart, unconsciously, because I wasn’t letting what they said influence me or hurt me. The problem is, I don’t know how to take that wall down, and I have […]

Posted by Phoenix On Jun - 11 - 2011 6 Comments READ FULL POST

Well I already told the people on facebook, and I really wanted to post a pic on here with the news…but I can’t post a pic from my ipod. 🙁 anyways… I’m pregnant. Just going into my 12th week now 😀 I emailed my parents…no idea if they read the email (I’d guess not), but with the subject of ‘your second grandchild’ so they couldn’t help seeing it. My next appointment is June 28th. We are hoping for a girl […]

Posted by Phoenix On Jun - 11 - 2011 4 Comments READ FULL POST
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